Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Getting back to the basics

     Recently, Olivia has been doing wonderful... Knock on wood! With this smooth sailing, we have been able to get back to the basics and create a nice sense of normalcy. We go to the grocery, play at the park, watch siblings games and dances, go to Disney on ice, and even celebrate holidays like it is no big deal. It has been so "normal" that we have let our guards down a bit too. Now trust me, we have never been the don't touch my child parents- with two older kids we just can't physically do this- but we have been more cautious with Olivia then say our other two when it comes to things. I have to tell fellow heart families out there, it has been kinda awesome to let go too.
     When we found out about Olivia, I worried. I freaked out to the sense I was so overvigilent with her I noticed everything. This served us well in the beginning, but as she grew... Even our cardiologist thought I was on the verge of psycho. I would go and ask questions about things that were not significant and at the time get very upset if they blew me off. Since then, I have learned that I know Olivia pretty darn well and if something is up, I won't miss it. Our cardiologist has learned this too, so when I am serious he listens.
    Olivia, like mentioned yesterday, is growing and fast. This makes me sad, but also happy. It tells me, we are doing an excellent job, but also makes it more obvious that she won't be a baby much longer. So now is the time to make sure I treasure the everyday moments. I sometimes wonder if this is just the calm before the storm (Fontan). Am I setting myself up for a huge setback? Will I be disappointed with myself for having let go of my guard? These are the questions that I am asking now. Kinda silly, I know.
     So for now, we treasure the "normal". We look forward to new adventures and moving on to big girl accomplishments. We know that the road ahead is going to have potholes, some bigger than others. We also know that we wouldn't trade a day on this road for anything else.

1 comment:

  1. You are 100% right! Keep doing what u are doing


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